Sunday, September 28, 2008
hey man...im bk today for posting....
read my previous posts felt a little sour in heart, little heart pain..
oh man..but Wendy is 23 this yr...she doesnt want to be easily knock down again.
today 29th September is his birthday and i guess that wendy will not celebrate with him,right wendy?
well...everything gonna be ok...everything i gonna submit to the lord.
recently i then found out the LET GO of myself for him. Though we are not together now i really wish God can save him.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUN KAI today....
Well...God bless those who honours HIM....
God reali heard my cry im going to have new assistant.
hooray... :) i gg to sabo him/her MAN....
Shhhh... DON tell him/her haha...
today i went to watch movie with someone but cnt reveal ltr ev1 xiang wai... haha....
erm the movie was pretty good but i forgot abt the title...haha...
DON SCOLD MII....
Just now, i help my daddy find logo online until i yawn yawn yawn but know wad i now super awake cos im talking to STUPID TRINA WONG WONG...
Trina... i love u lei... u'r reali my best fren who know mi in out of my life..
Thx God, He give me a BLUR fren like you(so that i will look smarter) who will always encourage n nv look dw on me.
i dono y i love to disturb u but u'r reali my sweety pie who sometimes drives me crazy due to ur blurness and stupidness...(HAHA)
Ur constant prayers for me and heart for me really touched me. TRINA... I love u my BEST FREN... :)
Don CRy when reading what i m going to write below.... N I M SERIOUS...
TRINA...
Be strong and courageous in ur ministry. Sometimes its not the numbers that we want to see in the G12, its the growth in them..
Dont be discourage when you see few people in ur G12, ask urself if u have actually given ur heart into reaching them..im posting this to even remind myself of my heart n attitude, to examine ourselves.
Like a plant will never grow without giving it water(the word of God),sunlight(prayers) and also with love.
As leaders we are not doing out of duty but for GOD.
If you love Jesus,feed the sheep, love them and take care of them. (it is in the bible)
U maybe "alone" in the G12 but God give you the holy spirit to lead with you.
God will provide ur needs, cry out to HIM.
He want us to pray in desperation.
Hv faith Henderson will get certification... :)
N i know u r alw not worry abt BGR stuff, god too will provide for u the best man who will not be as blur as u de...
:)
JIA YOU...
TO: Ernest NAh
Hey... ur dream comes true...
u'r now in main service..
I rem when u were in leading in Rzone21 for the first time,i congrats u and u told me, u want to get into HOF band and when u get into HOF band u said u want to play in the main service and indeed TODAY u r on the stage playing for the main service.(28th Sept 2008-Chinese and English Service)
Not for an event but u are doing a duty in the main service.
i also rem u told me is marilyn liew and melissa liew inspired u to want to learn violin and know what they came for service today and i tink they saw you playing.
I believe god reali bless you with such talents.
Dont let God take away the talent Honourand Cherish ur gift.
:)
Jia you....
k gonna end here...tired liao... :)
Loves,
wendy :)
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:34:00 PM
Thursday, January 10, 2008
well...it had been a long time since i blog...and why suddenly today??i hv no idea, jus suddenly felt lost empty in heart i guess...a leader shldnt feel this way ba but... i reali feel this way...i don like the feeling that im having now...i simply hate it...this yr will be 23 le...what is my plan?what is gonna be my future?i felt my life so unsure, uncertain....i had fall for someone i shldnt tink of falling but i had already fell...e moment with him is always so great though it mayb few hours...i don even think that he reali know i like him???when i don c him, i missed him...when he don msg mii, i kept looking into the phone...i trying my best not to call him nor msg him but i felt i cant....im too weak...can i let go of everything here n go elsewhere?i know im reali avoiding but that is my oni choice...oni thing i can do...Jesus...show mi the way....
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:21:00 AM
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
so long nv blog...
sure got lots of people complained n nagged de los...
well...after i left my office job now working in retail shop selling jap stuffs...
needing to hit targets learning more abt jap products reali make mii feel stressful but God is good...
He is always there to gif mii strength...
PRAISE HIM...
Rzone reali make mii a different person...
i ned to mix ard with the youth n wrking together with my brother is reali not easy...
i appreciate every sunday morning 0730 the devotion very encouraging...
whatever the case i know this coming sunday is my rzone OFF DAY...
\hooray i can slp late liao...
yeah...
dono y tmrw ned to wrk morning now not feeling tired at all...
heehee...
miss blogging but reali sorry no time...
last sat was gastronomy...oh man i was kind of discouraged...
pastor asked mii to lead but i din get to lead my members well allowing them to do tings of their will...
kind of get scolded by pastor....
:(
saddy...
the presentation of our pasta also not that good...
hopefully we can at least get second los...
this coming fri is the last day of CREATE---- mini musical...
well im involved...
hopefully we can do well this time...
oh ya talking abt CREATE, ernest did region B proud man...
He got second placing...
HEY!!!HE WAS LIKE SO COOL CAN...
AND HE SANG SO WELL...
i even recorded it down...
CoOl...
:>
i told him i gonna learn singing from him liao..
haha....
anyway i still cant over his voice reali thx GOD for the talents...
if not region B don have much good singers liao...
haha\
oh ya also very encourage by AGATHA cos recently she did try to bring frens and eventually her frens did turn up...
it's joyful to see her growing in the LORD...
:)
===================sad ting===========================================
hi everyone pls pray for my fren, her daddy.
He is in cancer last stage...
im very sad but i dono wat to tell her...
kept telling her abt GOD and the father can go heaven if he believes in JESUS.
a few times, she cried during wrk n when she called mii in the middle of the night..
i felt that i had always being telling her tings as though saying is easy but doing is very hard de los...
well, last time i did wrote a letter to her father inviting him to church but he turn mii down...
i reali prayed the LORD will use mii to reach out to him...
pls pray for mii s well...
===================sad ting===========================================
anyway gonna slp liao now is already 1am le still haven bath...
haha...
i see when i can blog again k?
thx for the support ar?
hahahahahahaha :)
gd night....
*pray for Region B...yea!!!!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:23:00 PM
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
hey guys...sorry for not blogging for so long..reali busy...my job, my g12 and my R Zone...everything seems so tied up didnt hv much time to breathe too... heehee...but thx GOD for always staying at my side...well.. i will cherish the ministries GOD had planted in my life...recently-, lots of things to stress, well... GOD always make mii rem HIM at all times that i can rely on him and HE alone...HE is always faithful...i almost give up everything last week...wanna tell pastors that i cant move on...im reali too stressful... i felt as if i used up all my strength...i was mad at GOD asking why HE did that to mii...GOD heard my cry...HE reali heard mii...HE comforted mii, telling my to cont to wrk, HE'll not gif mii anything that is too hard for mii to bear...HE reminded mii that im doing all these for HIS glory and not others to see...HE promised to bless mii if i walk in HIS way...i believe n i reali believe....trust in the LORD with all thy heart and lean not unto thy own understanding...i believe, how abt u???
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:44:00 PM
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
hi everyone...thx for the encouragements...
i reali appreciate them....
all those latest tags reali touches my heart..
jus three seconds i dropped my tears...
recently, after the break-up, i still needs to face him for like 5 days cos we are wrkg in the food fair...
is jealous to see him talking to other gals, smiling at them and even asking mii abt them....
is heart pain to see him not eating....
is angry when quarreling with him...
is sad when i felt lost in his eyes...
the last day of the food fair, he scolded mii in front of many people. ( known & unknown people)
is painful to be shouted in front of many...
from that moment, i hated him....
i hated him for the tings that he said to mii and hurt mii simply so deeply...
well...after the quarrel, we still meet.
we went to seletar dam the place we alw go....
the tings that he told mii melted my heart...
could it be my heart is too soft??
i dono...
he told mii that we will break up is bcos of my fren, jasmine...
bcos he don like her...
bcos whenever im with her im alw late hme....
he said bcos of jasmine, i lost a bf, maybe i will feel nth or rather happy but for him he said bcos of jasmine, he lost the woman he loved most...
my heart hurts deeply..
he told mii that is not bcos after the break up he then says all that to mii but bcos he want mii to know he reali loved mii...
nv betray mii n had nv tot of betraying mii....
he even said he will reali go church...
maybe many of u here may says that he oni say this after the break up what is the use?
is he asking for a patch??
nope he oni treats mii as fren n nth more....
n i believe his words...
naive?
i dono... but i simply believe after 3yrs 4 mths 2 days of courtship i know when he is speaking the truth n when he is not...
i dono... but one ting i know is that i still love him....
i know my sister, grace and maybe others might scold mii stupid as u might saw wad he did to mii...
why when people betray u, u still cn forgive? when oni he shouted at mii in vulgar in front of others?
i forgave him as he regretted shouting tt at mii....n he apologised...
well....time will heal my hurts and scars in the heart....
cheer up, wendy....
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:31:00 PM
Thursday, May 24, 2007
everynight he will call mii when he is on his way to wrk...yesterday, no more...no longer having any calls at that hour, no more having the same voice called asking :"dear, where are you?"everything is gone..i couldnt sleep at first, tossed here and there, listening to the radio...prayed to GOD to help me to sleep... and indeed i fall asleep...im not sure could it be that im always the one dwelling yet maybe he felt nth...i don want to cry...but my heartbeat becomes slow, each time it beats, it was slower than the previous time...i felt so weak and down...yesterday, when i was teaching the g12 lesson about to the closing part, the lesson mention that many couples they are quite compatible, but they chose to give up not bcos they don love each other but rather they cant endure to wait for the blessings that GOD had prepared for them...M i one of them???Was i the one who chose to give up?i dono...i reali dono...now as im typing, my heart is crying, my eyes remain cool...is not acting but i reali don want to cry...i will not forget the SPIDERMAN story that you told mii...thx u thx u....u take care...i always wanna take care of you but i guess its not within my limits ba....remember don smoke so much...treat ur nxt gf well...wo hui hao hao ai zi ji de....
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:42:00 AM
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
everything have ended...jus end as if nth much can help...is the letting go meant to be GOD's work?after 3yrs 4mths 2days, from one become two...maybe my love for him faded and maybe for him too...at first i was shocked but after it became a little sour in heart till i cried and the feeling just vanish...
people asked if we will be together again???i find it hard...hard to say and hard to accept if we need to be together again...is it GOD's plan for my life?yesterday afternoon, jasmine spoke to mii abt gg oversea to find our career.we are planning to go USA as her relatives stays there and they open one stop services of salon, manicure & pedicure, facial and etc....to mii, the oni thing i cant reali let go is him, but now, that he's gone....wouldnt it be beta??is it a sign from GOD???God...i need ur direction upon mii... i dont want to be lost...Regardless wad will happen, reali thx u for the happiness that u had given mii...i wonder if its sufficient to replace the hurts that u given mii as well but still thx u....w/o u, i really dono wad's growing up, being independent and etc....u mk mii see alot of things that i need to c in a guy...
i maybe foolish, childish or whatever thing u can tink of, but im definitely not someone u regret loving...im not self-praising myself just having confidence nia....heehee...anyway thxs ya....monday, i quarrelled with my parents...i hurt my mum deeply...i shouted at her saying that she is biased to my brother and she don love us(mii and kristy)i regretted saying that...im too selfish i oni tink for myself and neglected her feeling..the three of us who she gave birth to, i was the one who almost cause her life to be gone...and i said all those...bcos of mii, she supposed to go for operation but till now she had yet gone...sorry mummy, i know i shldnt say those, im reali sorry...i only know how to take money from you and bring you nth but worries and hurts...pls forgif mii...and sorry daddy i shldnt shout at u at all....im sorry...God, i know u want mii to humble myself to speak to them...its hard but i will try....
♥ the world will turn WILD.
5:03:00 AM
