Wednesday, May 30, 2007
hi everyone...thx for the encouragements...
i reali appreciate them....
all those latest tags reali touches my heart..
jus three seconds i dropped my tears...
recently, after the break-up, i still needs to face him for like 5 days cos we are wrkg in the food fair...
is jealous to see him talking to other gals, smiling at them and even asking mii abt them....
is heart pain to see him not eating....
is angry when quarreling with him...
is sad when i felt lost in his eyes...
the last day of the food fair, he scolded mii in front of many people. ( known & unknown people)
is painful to be shouted in front of many...
from that moment, i hated him....
i hated him for the tings that he said to mii and hurt mii simply so deeply...
well...after the quarrel, we still meet.
we went to seletar dam the place we alw go....
the tings that he told mii melted my heart...
could it be my heart is too soft??
i dono...
he told mii that we will break up is bcos of my fren, jasmine...
bcos he don like her...
bcos whenever im with her im alw late hme....
he said bcos of jasmine, i lost a bf, maybe i will feel nth or rather happy but for him he said bcos of jasmine, he lost the woman he loved most...
my heart hurts deeply..
he told mii that is not bcos after the break up he then says all that to mii but bcos he want mii to know he reali loved mii...
nv betray mii n had nv tot of betraying mii....
he even said he will reali go church...
maybe many of u here may says that he oni say this after the break up what is the use?
is he asking for a patch??
nope he oni treats mii as fren n nth more....
n i believe his words...
naive?
i dono... but i simply believe after 3yrs 4 mths 2 days of courtship i know when he is speaking the truth n when he is not...
i dono... but one ting i know is that i still love him....
i know my sister, grace and maybe others might scold mii stupid as u might saw wad he did to mii...
why when people betray u, u still cn forgive? when oni he shouted at mii in vulgar in front of others?
i forgave him as he regretted shouting tt at mii....n he apologised...
well....time will heal my hurts and scars in the heart....
cheer up, wendy....
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:31:00 PM
Thursday, May 24, 2007
everynight he will call mii when he is on his way to wrk...yesterday, no more...no longer having any calls at that hour, no more having the same voice called asking :"dear, where are you?"everything is gone..i couldnt sleep at first, tossed here and there, listening to the radio...prayed to GOD to help me to sleep... and indeed i fall asleep...im not sure could it be that im always the one dwelling yet maybe he felt nth...i don want to cry...but my heartbeat becomes slow, each time it beats, it was slower than the previous time...i felt so weak and down...yesterday, when i was teaching the g12 lesson about to the closing part, the lesson mention that many couples they are quite compatible, but they chose to give up not bcos they don love each other but rather they cant endure to wait for the blessings that GOD had prepared for them...M i one of them???Was i the one who chose to give up?i dono...i reali dono...now as im typing, my heart is crying, my eyes remain cool...is not acting but i reali don want to cry...i will not forget the SPIDERMAN story that you told mii...thx u thx u....u take care...i always wanna take care of you but i guess its not within my limits ba....remember don smoke so much...treat ur nxt gf well...wo hui hao hao ai zi ji de....
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:42:00 AM
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
everything have ended...jus end as if nth much can help...is the letting go meant to be GOD's work?after 3yrs 4mths 2days, from one become two...maybe my love for him faded and maybe for him too...at first i was shocked but after it became a little sour in heart till i cried and the feeling just vanish...
people asked if we will be together again???i find it hard...hard to say and hard to accept if we need to be together again...is it GOD's plan for my life?yesterday afternoon, jasmine spoke to mii abt gg oversea to find our career.we are planning to go USA as her relatives stays there and they open one stop services of salon, manicure & pedicure, facial and etc....to mii, the oni thing i cant reali let go is him, but now, that he's gone....wouldnt it be beta??is it a sign from GOD???God...i need ur direction upon mii... i dont want to be lost...Regardless wad will happen, reali thx u for the happiness that u had given mii...i wonder if its sufficient to replace the hurts that u given mii as well but still thx u....w/o u, i really dono wad's growing up, being independent and etc....u mk mii see alot of things that i need to c in a guy...
i maybe foolish, childish or whatever thing u can tink of, but im definitely not someone u regret loving...im not self-praising myself just having confidence nia....heehee...anyway thxs ya....monday, i quarrelled with my parents...i hurt my mum deeply...i shouted at her saying that she is biased to my brother and she don love us(mii and kristy)i regretted saying that...im too selfish i oni tink for myself and neglected her feeling..the three of us who she gave birth to, i was the one who almost cause her life to be gone...and i said all those...bcos of mii, she supposed to go for operation but till now she had yet gone...sorry mummy, i know i shldnt say those, im reali sorry...i only know how to take money from you and bring you nth but worries and hurts...pls forgif mii...and sorry daddy i shldnt shout at u at all....im sorry...God, i know u want mii to humble myself to speak to them...its hard but i will try....
♥ the world will turn WILD.
5:03:00 AM
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
erm...today is my third last day of work...
m i sad?
or i hv no feeling?
well...probably i will oni miss the people here ba...
do i feel relieve?
i dono but i guess i haiz...i also dono...
actually this few days i was thinking is it alright for mii to work in the nxt coy?
what is the thing i reali want?
what acheivement would i like to have??
i have no idea... totally no idea...
actually i wasnt in this mode de but somehow someone spoke to mii, asking mii if i goona work in retail for my whole life?
i dono n im pretty sad abt it...
hey...why is this happening to mii?
i don like los...
i don like to hv this type sour sour feeling in heart...
I'M LOST, GOD!!!!
PLEASE TELL MII WAT TO DO???
♥ the world will turn WILD.
7:13:00 AM
Friday, May 11, 2007
haha...im good in making money hahaha....
♥ the world will turn WILD.
2:27:00 AM
Thursday, May 10, 2007
yesterday night i was like so stupid...finding for a stupid clothes... like finding high n low los...sian...
then this morning recall that i placed at somewhere else...
then now im super tired los... both the eyes like panda los...
sob sob ke lian ke lian wo ba.... (haha)
anyway, on tuesday night i went to watch a movie, 200 pounds beauty.
ohh man, its a good show, i give 5 stars to the movie.... (deserve the pts de los)
its funny n heart warming...
must watch ar!!! but the movie is coming down soon.... so faster watch...
yesterrday afternoon, i went to watch SPIDERMAN with joel, grace and kristy.
well this time round the movie is not very good production. could had done beta....
but still ok la i give 3 stars los...
anyway, i will never go tampines to watch movie again, not the cinema is small or not comfortable but the people there watching are very very noisy....
WE CANT STAND IT!!!!!
haiz....
nvm, yesterday, the lesson was very good and i myself though im teaching, i enjoyed the lesson...
GOD is good....
reali pray that each n everyone of us who had gone for yesterday g12 lesson keep the msg in ur heart...
hmmm... tired again liao... gonna end here....
show u all someting funny b4 i leave..
below this is done by my colleague, LEOW MEI SI...
haha...
this is my another colleague, JULIAN TEO...he looks better right?
better than the original one?
~haha~
♥ the world will turn WILD.
2:48:00 AM
Monday, May 7, 2007
erm...
now wrking los...
a little free...today the time passes very fast..
haha...anyway i find that women can multi task jus like mii...
heehee...
im doing my posting, eating, answering calls, preparing G12 lesson and smsing my baby...
really good los and im so capable...
haha...i so self-praise los...
anyway stomach pain pain....
goona end soon here....
ok upload a pic i took with mae during leaders' mitting halfway then i just took out my mobile n SNAP....
here this!!!!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:07:00 AM
Sunday, May 6, 2007
yesterday, we lost our game los...was it my fault???did i played well??did i even practise hard??before the game, i prayed to the Lord asking Him to bless which ever team He wanna.God is a fair GOD...He will do things of His will...He is never unfair..I don care who will say anything but i choose to believe...GOD IS FAIR....is the test that God placed before us...if we win we praise Him but if we lost??we still praise Him...amen??thanks to the players that were in my team...my partner--- JO my men players--- Yong Jie & Chi Mingmy two willing to play as a reserve players & they played very well ---- Ernest & Maethanks everyone...we had a good game, right??though we lost, but we are in the 2nd position.we had alot of fun, isnt it?anyway reali thanks for always make the effort to come for the game...today 06/05/2007 is my daddy & mummy 23rd years anniversary...thank God for His protection and love for them...yesterday morning i accompany my mummy go buy present for daddy.she bought him a polo tee and a pant... (making use of my shoulder's length)in the evening after my game, my daddy came to fetch mii..i accompany daddy go buy present for mummy.he bought her a ring... (making use of my finger)they were both very happy after the exchanging gift... (hee hee)GOD, i pray that daddy will always love mummy , so do mummy.N also pray that mummy will be saved, so that the whole family will go church to serve You.NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE IN GOD!!!!after accompanying my dad buy present, i went to jasmine's hse for steamboat..3 person, mii jas n her bf Chong Soon...n we start like from 10pm...ya... n we bought alot of things to eat los....its was like so fun n full los....in the end chong soon did all the washing n cleaning haha....mii n jasmine are like queens los... sit there n shake leg... heehee...oh ya... forgot to say i took cab down carried alot of things...then this cab uncle drive half way say he dono how to go from MANDAI AVE...oh...then i nv say anything los cos i oni know which is the fastest way, i dono how to go...later he drive mii ard still scold mii, :"you dono the road still ask mii to go by MANDAI AVE".ohh man then the cab fare was actually 6bucks till 10bucks los...u know what???he still dare to take the money...he went one big round los...nvm, GOD says must bless....forget it then!!!!ok la... end here liao...gonna buy food for my beloved daddy & mummy le...blog again tomorrow....
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:31:00 AM
Friday, May 4, 2007
wooooo...had being sick on bed for couples of days...hate it man...the doc says i got intestine infection another says i got stomach flu, combine them together they are actually the same jus that my is the serious case de...and ya los i spend like a bomb for my medical again...everytime str get pay straight sick and spend a bomb los...wooooo....can u jus imagine everyday porridge??sUcks Man...wednesday, my hse is not open for g12 due to mii unable to teach n my sickness can spread de los...so my g12 members went to YB3....erm...heard that chun seng taught the lesson wonder if my members pay attention ornot?will qns them nxt wed... haha....oh ya...tonight is the movie...u know how i invite my frens??haha...i asked a few people who know Pastor Nicholas, then i said:" this is a good movie... even my Pastor such a big man cried for this movie.must come!!must come!!"well oni one responded...haha...nvm i thx GOD and i pray she will come... nth will happen n she will come to experience the touch of the holy spirit....GOD, i wanna see my good fren, Jasmine get saved.
♥ the world will turn WILD.
2:11:00 AM
haha...im good in making money hahaha....
this is my another colleague, JULIAN TEO...
