Wednesday, May 23, 2007
everything have ended...jus end as if nth much can help...is the letting go meant to be GOD's work?after 3yrs 4mths 2days, from one become two...maybe my love for him faded and maybe for him too...at first i was shocked but after it became a little sour in heart till i cried and the feeling just vanish...
people asked if we will be together again???i find it hard...hard to say and hard to accept if we need to be together again...is it GOD's plan for my life?yesterday afternoon, jasmine spoke to mii abt gg oversea to find our career.we are planning to go USA as her relatives stays there and they open one stop services of salon, manicure & pedicure, facial and etc....to mii, the oni thing i cant reali let go is him, but now, that he's gone....wouldnt it be beta??is it a sign from GOD???God...i need ur direction upon mii... i dont want to be lost...Regardless wad will happen, reali thx u for the happiness that u had given mii...i wonder if its sufficient to replace the hurts that u given mii as well but still thx u....w/o u, i really dono wad's growing up, being independent and etc....u mk mii see alot of things that i need to c in a guy...
i maybe foolish, childish or whatever thing u can tink of, but im definitely not someone u regret loving...im not self-praising myself just having confidence nia....heehee...anyway thxs ya....monday, i quarrelled with my parents...i hurt my mum deeply...i shouted at her saying that she is biased to my brother and she don love us(mii and kristy)i regretted saying that...im too selfish i oni tink for myself and neglected her feeling..the three of us who she gave birth to, i was the one who almost cause her life to be gone...and i said all those...bcos of mii, she supposed to go for operation but till now she had yet gone...sorry mummy, i know i shldnt say those, im reali sorry...i only know how to take money from you and bring you nth but worries and hurts...pls forgif mii...and sorry daddy i shldnt shout at u at all....im sorry...God, i know u want mii to humble myself to speak to them...its hard but i will try....
♥ the world will turn WILD.
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